Updated: Aug 15, 2020

"I hope you find your way. Sorry we didn't make it. I miss you anyway."

Maybe in another lifetime this world would’ve been better for you. Maybe you would’ve been at peace, maybe you wouldn’t have felt so much pain. Maybe there would’ve been more help, more resources, more love.


You’ve found peace, yet here I am crying. Selfish enough to want you on the cruel earth that made you want to leave. Selfish enough to think more about how much I miss you and less about why you left in the first place.


The unbearable sadness you had to feel.


“I guess I’ll wait another lifetime”.


I’ll have to tell you your worth when we meet again, because I took it for granted while you were here. Maybe I’ll be able to hug you more, support you more, reassure you more. Maybe I can understand you more.


My friend is gone. My heart has a hole, but you have all the reassurance you need, wherever you are. You know everyone you love will heal. You know that each person that is hurting from your passing will turn it into motivation. And you know that you left a mark on every single person you have ever encountered.


I just wish you stayed here long enough for the world to experience the love that is you.

I just wish you stayed here long enough for the world to experience your intelligence.

I just wish you stayed here long enough to find the happiness you were seeking.

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underground black girl

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a place to discuss the things we're told to heal from without apology

about the creator

Hey everyone! My name is Alexus Moore, but everyone calls me Lexsie. I am currently an undergraduate student at a university in Indianapolis, IN. My major is Psychology & my minor is Afro-American Studies. 

I started my blog January 27, 2019 - a few days after a close friend of mine committed suicide. he struggled with his mental health a lot, and it was hard for him to find a safe place while he was here on earth. so, I was determined to make one. since that day I have dedicated my life to creating a safe place for us - and keeping a constant line of communication open for anyone who needs it.

the purpose of my blog is to create a space for people, especially black youth that are struggling with depression, anxiety, and more. we are constantly told that we are not allowed to feel emotion if we have basic necessities. and it is beneficial to know someone is there, and willing to listen.

so come on, let's heal 🖤

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